It's time...

...to get rid of the monitor in John's room. Yes...he's 4 and I still had the monitor in there. And Yes it seems like a little much but for some reason I just couldn't make myself take it out. But now with baby 2 on the way, it's time.

He's slept through the night for quite a while now...like since he was 2... if he needs me, he yells or just comes downstairs. I don't really need to hear every movement, raindrop on his window, clock ticking, or when the toilet in his bathroom runs. But I have to admit, sometimes when I get up in the middle of the night, I'll put the monitor to my ear just so I can hear him breathe. It eases my paranoid mind and I sleep better. Sounds silly, but I think I'm ready to let go.

I'm so grateful that I don't have one of the video monitors...I'd use that until he went to college!

25 weeks, frustrated & unmotivated

I'm 25 weeks today... we still haven't come up with a name nor have I done anything with the nursery. What's wrong with me? Why can't I get motivated?

I've picked out the crib bedding...and I love love love it but I cannot make myself pay $475 for it. I just can't do it!! So my mind went into overdrive...that's when I had the ambitious idea to try and make it myself...WHY I think I can do this is beyond me. I really want to at least try but the realist in me is saying, "come on, do you really have the time?". So I don't know what to do. Do I look for cheaper bedding that I don't care for or do I attempt to make it myself?

Speaking of dilemas...this little boy still doesn't have a name. We've added some more options to our list and they're all okay names....nothing really standing out at this point.

I'm getting really frustrated...I like to have things in order and here I am 25 weeks and I have nothing done! I had everything ready for John and couldn't enjoy it b/c we were living in a rent house with no space. Now I have this nice, big house and can't seem get anything accomplished.

Anyone wanna ... paint a nursery, sew crib bedding, organize John's old baby clothes OH and name this kid? PLEASE!!!

Early swim and Spring Break Day

Yesterday, Tim picked John up early from school..instead of going to the park like John thought, they went swimming.  Our friends, The Lee's, just had a pool put in and heated it for Spring Break. They were kind enough to invite us over so John could swim. I met them after work and no I did not swim....noone wants to see this prego in a swimsuit! When Tim told him what they were doing, he said, "what the world?"....hahaha, love it! John had a blast and I'm sure it's a memory he won't forget!

Oh, he also proclaimed that we needed a hot pool. So Poppy and Grandma, if you're reading this..your Grandson would like you to put in a pool at our house so Poppy can use it. hahahha!!

Tomorrow I'm taking a "Spring Break Day". John and I have nothing planned but I'm thinking we're just gonna stay home and enjoy the beautiful weather before it rains & gets cold on Saturday. I'm just excited that I don't have to get up and get ready.

Let Spring Break day commence!

Spring Break blues & Working mom's guilt

We've got a serious case of the Spring Break blues and working mom's guilt. John is having a very hard time understanding why he has to go to school when everyone is on Spring Break. His teacher and most of the kids in his class are gone this week. The school tries to do fun activities for the kids that are there but he just doesn't care at this point. All he wants is to be at home on Spring Break.

I dropped him off at school yesterday morning and he bawled. Talk about ripping your heart out....aghhh, it was terrible! I cried when I got back in the car...I so wanted to just take him back home and spend all week doing fun things. But unfortunately, that's not our reality and I hate it..absolutely hate it.

This morning wasn't any better either. He woke up talking about having a "rest day" at home. Good grief!

So it looks like I'll be taking Friday off for a Spring Break Day. Which I'm fine with except I only have 3 1/2 days left until June 23rd...well now 2 1/2 days. Vacation time and sick time are precious commodities around here, especially when you'll be taking maternity leave in 3 months.

Tim said he was going to try and pick him up early today and take him to the park. Maybe that will help! Sure hope so...this guilt is killer!

Missing Chucky really bad!

John:  Mommy, I really wanna go see Chucky
Me:   Chucky?....ohhhh Cheese...
John:  yes, I miss him really bad
Me:  well okay, maybe we'll go see Chucky soon

He then gives me this face...

A poor attempt at a pouty face...don't ya think? He tried really hard but kept laughing b/c I was cracking up!

Ahh that boy makes me laugh!

Home Depot experiment

Home Depot has these red plastic adirondack chairs that I've been wanting for our back porch. We have some that we got probably 7 years ago and they are in terrible shape.  So we desperately needed new ones.

I know they aren't the most luxurious of patio furniture but they work for what we'll use them for...so don't judge!

Anyway, Tim went to the Home Depot in Conroe and of course they were out of red. So I called the store here in The Woodlands and bingo....they had them. Sweet...so instead of making Tim drive down to pick them up, I offered to pick them up at lunch. I knew that they would be large and kinda awkard for me to maneuver but I thought surely someone would help the poor pregnant woman out. BOY, was I wrong! Not only did noone help me get them off the shelf but noone offered to help me when I checked out. Now it's pretty obvious that I'm pregnant here people and I was kinda surprised that I didn't recieve one single offer.

So off I go with my cart and 5 bright red adirondack chairs. I start attempting to load them into the back of my tahoe, which I thought would be large enough but again I was wrong! I had to pull out the 3rd row seats, stack them and pull the 2nd row seat up towards the back of my seat. I'm grunting and cussing (under my breath of course) and up walks a lady who had just bought some mulch with a Home Depot man. The HD man loads up her truck with mulch and starts to walk away...

Me:   Excuse me sir...sir
HD man:   yah
Me:    Would you mind helping me for a sec
HD man:   blank stare...okay
Me:   Thank you so much, I would do it myself but they're just a little heavier that I thought (I really wanted to say, "uuuh hello do you not see my pregnant butt struggling here?)

After 15 minutes we finally got the stupid chairs in my car.

Now I'm pretty self sufficient by nature. I actually prefer to do things by myself....another characteristic of an only child. Maybe I should have directly asked for help but I assumed someone would notice my HUGE stomach and offer. Guess that's what I get for assuming!

My child is...

hysterical, shy, energetic, creative, a great helper, music lover, silly, a talker, full of ideas, loves to learn, tentative, happy, sensitive, over-thinker, loves to be outside, stubborn, full of laughter, thoughtful, sweet-spirited, happy go lucky, funny, tempermental, candy lover, crazy, all boy, animal lover, big hearted, and so much more...

He's everything that's right with the world and I'm so proud of him.  There isn't a day that goes by that I don't love him more than the day before.

Babies R Us shopping spree

I stepped into a Babies R Us for the first time in 4 years yesterday. I went in with the intent to just buy a maternity sleep pillow but ended up with all kinds of stuff in my cart. There are all kinds of new gagets and "necessities" that I thought I needed to have for Spengel boy #2. By the way, we still don't have a name. I'll get to that in a sec....

For instance, did you know you can buy a fetal heart monitor. It's not quite like the one at the dr's office but I still think it's cool that you can listen to the heartbeat anytime you want. I considered buying one...just for peace of mind. But I didn't. I also didn't buy the $60 sleep pillow that I really wanted b/c the cheap side of me said I didn't really need it. Ugghh, I hate that I do that!

I did however buy all kinds of other stuff that I probably didn't really need but I couldn't help myself. I started to feel guilty b/c I felt like this little guy didn't have anything of his own. Everything is going to be hand me downs, which is fine but I still wanted our no-name baby to have his own "new" stuff.  I guess that's the only child in me.

On to the name thing....we're struggling with names. Well I say struggling, but to be honest we haven't really talked about it since the day we found out we were having another boy. I started a list and we've briefly discussed some new names to add to the list but that's it. I'm really stumped. So please any ideas are greatly appreciated!!!